More Ying & Yang

Much thanks to everyone who commented yesterday about my dog. No need for money, Daddy, but thanks for the thought. Our issue is that we?re living in someone else?s house, and they didn?t want him here. We have another dog that gets along fine with the cat, and he?s welcome anytime.



Well, Mrs. Big picked him up yesterday from the woman that tried to foster him. She also had to make a command decision, and I know how hard it was for her and respect her for doing it. We heard that many of the local shelters are expecting this weekend to be a big adoption weekend due to the holiday, so she was able to convince a no-kill shelter to take him. We?re sure he?ll be placed quickly due to his great temperament with people, especially kids. But, that still doesn?t make it any easier. We were both in tears yesterday when she called to tell me. Neither of us has had the nerve to tell the kids yet. They aren?t old enough to understand the situation, so they?re going to take it hard and look to blame someone.



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It looks like Mrs. Big may have a part-time job soon, teaching pre-k here in Jax. So, that?s good.



Poker-wise, yesterday was interesting. When I go through little runs as far as cashing/not cashing in SNGs, I?ll just stop playing for the day. Either I?ve won enough, or lost enough. The only time I play a lot of sessions in a single day is when I?m alternating not-cashing with some thirds and occasional seconds, staying basically breakeven. There?s something that drives me to be a winner or a loser for a day, and those breakeven days just frustrate me.



Anyway, yesterday started off rough, so rough I would normally bag it. Four straight losses at the $225 turbos would usually get me to turn off the PC and come back tomorrow. But, I was feeling like I was playing well, so I stuck it out to finish with 2 wins in my last 3 for a $315 profit and 20% ROI on the day for 4 table hours. It felt good to keep it together and avoid the tilt, just keep playing my game and knowing it would all work out in the end.



BuccaneerMike is the only person in my real life that knows the real extent of my recent success. Mrs. Big has an inkling because of a couple of sizeable cashouts I?ve done to pay for a few things, but I suspect she thinks I?ve made about half of what I?ve actually made. If she knew how high I play, she?d have a conniption. BuccaneerMike tells me I should just say ?fuck it? and do this for a living, but I just can?t see it. I don?t think I have the temperament. There?s just something inside me that tells me I won?t play the same way when it?s my rent/mortgage on the line. I like being able to provide for some necessities and the occasional luxury during this time, but I?d much rather have a real job with a steady salary and benefits. Landlords and mortgage companies prefer their customers to have real jobs, and my entire focus right now is getting out of this place. I would much prefer poker to have its place in my life as a vehicle I use to pay down some debt and fund some retirement/college accounts. That alone would be huge, and I could certainly count myself among the lucky few.

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